Down but not OUT!

(posted on FB group 6-11-18)

Well it happened... that one comment that cuts you to the core about your weight. Unfortunately it came from my 9 year old, talk about taking me out of the game....almost. 

After a good cry, apologies and hugs, we all went to bed. The next morning, no change on the scales or in the measurements. My first thought was "screw it, why am i even bothering". My next thought was "get ready for work and go eat a big breakfast meal at burger king". My third thought as I went by the hall mirror to my room... "girl stop, you are down almost 65lbs. You got this".

My heart is not broken but it was definitely wounded. These last two days have been hard but looking back i see a lesson that will stay with me through this journey and beyond.

Food is never going to change the words that were said. Food is not going to take feelings away that hurt. Food is not going to make everything better for me. Food is not the answer when i am hurting. Food is not my comfort anymore. Food does produce feel good hormones but it is a fake feeling.
My good feelings now come from knowing that i followed my program through this. That i have since lost another 1lb. That i have been getting a ton of hugs and cuddle times! That encouragement comes in least expected places when you need it the most.
😘❤ Sandy